Desires Fulfilled

This week I turned thirty-one years old. Every year I take an inventory of my life or I think back to exactly a year ago and try to identify the changes, benefits, and blessings in my life. To think...one year ago...I was depressed about turning thirty, I was eternally single without a prospect in sight, and I lived in the great but unbelievably cold state of Minnesota. Now I am engaged to be married to a wonderful man (who completely loves and adores me), my desire to be loved is fulfilled, and I live in the unbelievably warm state of Mississippi.

I have this indescribable feeling...I don't know if it's gratefulness...or if it's just a relief that the waiting is over...or if it's the revelation that God is faithful and really does care about the desires of our hearts....but whatever it is...I know that I am blessed and my faith has been restored.

All my birthdays prior to this one has always been a little sorrowful. Not because I didn't have a man per se, but because I was taught all my life that God graciously gives us the desires of our hearts. My desire was to be loved (by an actual man who wasn't God or wasn't related to me) and every year that desire was still unfulfilled. Each year I lost more and more hope...I honestly believed that my desires would not be fulfilled on this earth. Whatever your desire is...know that there is a God who sees you...who cares enough to know what your desires are...even when things seem hopeless...know that He is in the hopelessness with you...and He will bring you through. In hind-sight it's cool to see God's hand in things.

Disclaimer: I am not saying that I need a man to make me whole! The point of this blog is to express the awsomeness I felt when unmet desires were finally met!

"Don't freak out..."

I was sitting on the bench with some of my co-workers watching the kids play in the gym. All of a sudden one of my co-workers says "don't freak out"..I look at him confused...again he says "don't freak out"...I followed his eye gaze and there it was a hubongous cockroach chillin' on my leg. I didn't want to freak out because I didn't want it to crawl down my leg and then up my pants...eek. A few shakes and I successfully got it off. Ewwwww....the cockroaches in Mississippi must be on steroids...I've never seen them so big (in this country). No worries...a student smooshed it's little guts out so I won't be seeing that bug chillin' on me anymore.